Necessary.

At times I wish I could escape

From myself

From the confinement of my body

From the desires, remembrances, scars within my mind

I want to escape but I want to cower

In the corners

In your arms

It’s pitch black but here I lay

Reaching out for the body that isn’t there

Curling up

Closing eyes

Steady heart

It’s my nightmare, my worst fear, my reality

All alone but my heart calls your perfect name

It’s more a need than a longing

But I don’t want you to hear the desires, remembrances, scars

I don’t want to share

I don’t want to heal

But I want you to know

Be my escape